It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway
I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you
I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life
WENDEECASPER.
20. Female. 11051989. Diploma in Mass Communication. Advanced Diploma in Visual Communication.
Progressive trance, Electro, Alternative, green tea frapp.
I'm a sucker for romantic comedies & is no more a skeptic when it comes to love.
I've no idea what to type.. been hitting backspace so much, I wanna post a blank entry. The perfect match as to how I'm feeling now.
I can't bring myself to listen to the chinese songs I got from you..for some reason, it hurts so damn much. I think I'm overreacting.
Casper, I love spending time with you. My days with you are so unpredictable, I'm always looking out for something new. But recently all I got was
me feeling disappointed. All I really wanted was for me to be as important as you are to me. I know work comes first for you. That I can understand.
I just hope you don't neglect me, don't take me for granted. You got me all smiling like mad when you said..you love me more than I love you. I'd
like to believe that. Prove it. Cos up until now.. I think it's the other way around.
You won't get to hear this often..so I'm just gonna say it. Casper Ang, I Love You. I'd accomodate to your schedule. I'd wait for you to be free.
I'd wait for you no matter how long. If waiting is what it takes to be with you, I'd wait for you for the rest of my life. I miss you so much baby.
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4th February 2010; 11:56PM
I don’t think you notice, but when we’re close my eyes look as if i’ve never looked at anything else in my life more beautiful than you.
I can’t wait till you finally see it.
~ BoyMeetsLove
ILY, Casper.
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1st February 2010; 12:49AM
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I've been drinking too much these days. On a lighter note, I've someone to call my own. :D
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24th January 2010; 09:30AM
collide
Looking around, I don't know how many times I've let love die because of you. If anything were to happen between me and someone else, nothing
will ever happen between me and you. And I don't ever want to think that it never could. I just.. I'm saving myself up for you. But you don't
seem to care. Instead, you send me mixed signals. You're hot and you're cold. I'm at loss for words and I don't know what else to do.
Not long after I've decided to never ever give up on you...someone came along.
Admit it, people get excited with shiny new toys..so do I. All I wanted was just an hour or two from you..all I needed was your attention. But no,
you're too busy. Sure, that someone managed to break down these walls of defenses I've built. Now I'm torn between two. You two make me happy.
You make me happy by being there for me when I needed you the most and what we have..I doubt anyone can give me the same.
On the other hand, that someone makes me happy by filling up the emptiness inside. I was void of all emotions..and he made me smile...not the
way you did..but at least it's still a smile. Should I wait for you and feel like crap for the next few years? Or should I keep my options
open..? I guess I'm not ready to completely let you go.. Sigh.....
Never love a love that hurts, and never hurt a love that loves.
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23rd January 2010; 05:11PM
secrets
Everything is a lie..
Where are you? Everyday..I look forward to the day that I can see you again.
You're partly the reason..I smile.
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18th January 2010; 08:53PM
shawty's like a melody in my head
So I got this from my email... TAURUS - The Enduring One (April 20 - May 20)
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard -- passionate. Expresses themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined.. Indulges themselves often. Very generous.
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up ( Peter Pan Syndrome ). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing.. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
Is it me or is it just seriously SO SPOT ON???? My patience is..wow. Yes yes I am generous, practically a giver..but I can be quite stingy when it comes
to ciggs..but ah I'll work on that. Gonna head down to ecp with sexy Joyee in a bit. I can't find my canon charger..left with 1 bar. I wanna take picturesssssssss
to get myself ready for Thursday class! I'm so excited!!!!!!
Ciaos.
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17th January 2010; 12:12PM
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These days I'm just plain cranky, short tempered, paranoid and everything else. I'll snap at you if you piss me off out of the blue.
Sigh..who am I? :(
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16th January 2010; 11:52PM
worth the waiting
01.
I will hide myself for you,
I will keep my heartbeat buried underground;
without a word,
without an ounce of worry.
I will conceal all I am,
all the traits you like and moments you prefer
will be waiting,
will be further from me.
You deserve the very best of what you choose.
I will preserve it, until aching hearts are soothed.
How we word it doesn't matter, how it's viewed
is where its worth is. I will save myself for you.
02.
I am treasure on the sea floor
with an ache to be removed.
I'm a city built of gold
hoping to be discovered soon.
You are worth your waiting heart,
you are diamond and doubloon.
You are all the worth that matters;
I am ever needing you.
03.
You're the rhythm in my cavern,
giving meaning to my chest.
You're the emblem in my pattern,
the completion of my crest.
You are more than I imagine,
so I'll give to you my best.
You are more than I can fathom,
so in you I'll find my rest.
Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
~ Neil Gaiman
I had 2 classes today..from 10am-6pm. Typography. Photography. I'm fascinated...it was awesome. Gonna be busy from today til March. Once again, no time
for myself. Photography class was going great for a while..until an image of you came fleeting into my mind. Why'd you have to appear? Why'd you have
to linger around? It's bad enough that you appear in my dreams 2 days in a row. Sometimes I wake up and the only thing I can think about is you.
I don't know how I ended up like this. You've become such an important part of me. I'm always better whenever you're around. You bring out the
better part of me..you bring out the good side of me. I'm selfish, but I'm willing to share with you. I'm quiet, timid and shy, but I can say
what's on my mind when I'm with you. I hardly smile..but with you, my lips just breaks into a smile every now and then. It's easier to breathe
when you're here. But you're not..you're not here tonight...or any other nights. All I have is that old picture of us..smiling. For once, there's a
reason for me to smile. You're my everything. I kinda love / hate that at the same time. But I've to live with it..cos it's the only thing I have
right now.
Urgh. Fight on bunny. Lighten up..tomorrow will be a better day. On a lighter note, I am looking forward to creating my typography journal. :)
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13th January 2010; 11:55PM
in the shadows
I give up..trying to hide this. I can't. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. It's true. Without your presence, I am nothing but an empty
shell..a walking zombie. I'm not really alive.. Last night I dreamt about us..I've never smiled that way before. Only you can make me. Only you can break me. So go ahead..do what you do best.
CASPER.
8th February 2010; 09:18AM
