I refused to say anything, just so they won't know anything about you. I just kept quiet...it was me, my confused thoughts and her words. It was one of those nights. They saw pictures of us, pictures taken in 2007. Cos of that, I am once again the bad one. In anger, I deleted all the pictures. There's nothing left..
I feel awkward in this situation. I thought they didn't mind..they were joking about it. But deep down they are so angry about it. I'm sorry, I forgot that this family needs face. No, I'm not allowed to be with someone different. Although I don't see any difference, we're all humans. Yes, go ahead and compare me with them.
3.30-6.30PM: TDMC Class.
7-10PM: APM Class.
The only thing I'm looking forward to are these 2 classes. At least I get to be away from this space. Yes, I now call it space.
To the one person who probably know what I'm talking about, ignore this. Thanks Grace, you're a big help.
Met my friend yesterday and she passed me my marimo!!
Thanks for the marimo, you don't know how long I've wanted this. HEHE!!!
Marimo-chan is my new pet. No fish or tortoise this time round. Just Marimo-chan. So cuteeeee right? (:
Met Alia for dinner and we talked a lot. Saw a fly on the ATM screen. Not on, it's IN. INSIDE THE SCREEN. Going to school to pay fees and then heading down to Aljunied for interview. I hope I don't get lost. Xuannnnnn, I can't wait to meet you. I miss you I miss you I miss you!!!!!
WeCan I say...I miss you so much, it's unbearable?
That smile, that voice, that face...it's all so familiar. You're my home, yet I'm afraid to dream about you. I don't want to wake up feeling empty...
I never got the chance to say this, thank you for taking care of me..and for alwas being there for me no matter what happens. I can never thank you enough..
I'm hearing voices in my head.
It's your voice that I hear..
Things happen when you least expect it to. Surprise surprise.
Won't you sing for me..?
The first person who knew about it? Alia
The second person who knew about it? You
Can I say, who would have thought?
That's right..who would have thought...?
Who would have thought that things will happen one after another. Who would have thought that by losing someone, it will make me stronger. Who would have thought that I will wake up from this dream finally. Who would have thought that I have to remodule so many subjects. Yes, I am feeling so many emotions at once. I think by the end of the week I will break down. Nothing cushions the blow this time. Shit keeps happening so quickly..say like from a machine gun.
Came back home with a heavy heart last night.
I don't know how you manage to do it. I feel comfort each time you hit me with reality. Just continue doing what you do best, comfort me with those facts. I can do so much better than this. I'm going to shower, eat loads for breakfast and live my life properly for once. For once.
What would you say if...
I miss xx and she's late for her training.
If I don't shower now I'm gonna be late....meeting mama at wisma at 12..hehe.
I should really clean my table!!! I go crazy on etsy.
I rather not talk to people who are fickle minded, drives me up the wall. One more thing, I'm not interested in
anything else except for my school, myself, my few good friends, show and above & beyond. It should keep me going
for a while. I've decided to just go with it. Remodule part time, work part time and advanced dip full time. All for
the sake of a better future for me. I've ruined half of my life and I don't wish to ruin it any further. I will
always remember what he told me. Thanks by the way...when I can't go on, it's your voice that I hear...that makes
me push myself further.
Thanks Weilun, for the Hokkaido Honeydew Hi-Chew, best thing ever!!!!!
Ying-chan's holding my marimo in captive.